Goodbye

Its not an easy thing to say to people who now are very close to you. more then sisters. I dont know how to explain it. Its like being so close that you know what the other person is thinking or feeling just by reading their signs and habits. I really dont like to think about the fact that this is my last night with the KALM girls. Its not fun to think about it. We had a girls night. Lauren showed emotion. I couldnt. That is for tomorrow when Amanda leaves and then i can cry. Not till then.
These three girls are so incredible. You know when you go into a situation where there is a whole group of new people and you think... wow.... i wonder if I will meet anyone here that will become a best friend. I thought about that befor I came to dorm. I wanted new friends... not saying the ones at home are good but sometimes I feel like they dont always understand. I wanted people to know me but not to have known me since i was 6 and headed to Kindergarten, like 28 of the 36 people in my grad class. And i thought about it befor i came..... who am I going to meet that will effect my life.
Then all of a sudden, out of no where the three of us started hanging out. I dont know why I was drawn to these three imperticular. Was it because we all had different hair colors.....??? Or was it because Lauren had good chips and dip... or was is because God said.... you will be friends, you will all need eachother at some point and each of you has something to bring. I bet on the last one.
To me, God made the greatest balance in friendships that could ever be created. Maybe a lil extra crazieneess but overall... pretty balanced. Like the fact that lauren is way more of a listener then a talker..... The nurturing that comes from Amanda .... and the protection that Meg wants to have for everyone. We all are so different, no one doubts that, yet it works. Sure there have been our fights, where the boys just know not to come over, but hey, we worked it out, and we actually worked it out, we didnt just leave it till it went away.
I just love these girls so much. There is nothing in the world that would make me want to change this year. I thank God everyday for Lauren, the German, Meg, the lover, and Amanda, the fiery red head, because for once i my life I can say that I have three Best friends that i would do anything for.


Ya and you boys, love ya too. You know who you are and you mean the world to me too because if you wouldnt have been around the estrogen would have just exploded.

Thanks for the amazing year, really, if it hadnt been for you all, I duno what I would have done.
XOXO

Why?

Why do people feel the need to be complete jacks for no apparent reason. It just pisses you off. Like really. Why do you have to pee some one off just for fun? I dont get it. Whatever probably never will. Anyways that my rant for the day. I also hate people that feel the need to change who they are in the company of other people. Ok, so i understand that if your around parents or older people or something the need to act more mature or something but not your friends. If they are your friends dont deny who you are. only proves your ashamed of something you are and that aint right.

anyways i should go to sleep and try and sleep off this crusty mood. Whatever. I hope that one day it will all be understood.

ha ha... not 3

You Are 25 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The plans have been made

I am very excited. I am one of those people who really like s to know what is going on in my life and have a plan and even if the plan changes its ok but you still need to have a plan to start with.
So this summer should look like this:
I will be going home this weekend for easter. My mom has gratiously insured my car so I will be able to drive myself, and friends back to dorm with me when we return easter sunday. Then on the 26/7th I will so long and move back to Lloydminster into my house at Blackfoot. that should be good. Then I will be helping my dad out at the shop untill our trip to New York happenes on May 18th -22nd. Which i am highly excited for.Whooope. I will then take the next little bit off to get organised for working at the pool.
As of June 1st the Outdoor Pool in Lloyd will be open which is a whole month earlier then last year. I am very excited to have full time at the pool seens as last year i worked full time just wasnt ever schedualed for it. So if anyone is trying ot find me at some point in time during the summer I will probably be there more then likely. Then come the begining of July, for July 5th(Riley ) and July 12th(Kaelynn) I plan of trying to get to Pentiction one way or another for my kids birthdays!! ok... niece and nefew! Lol. Which I am highly excited about. Whoope and maybe get a chance to visit Michelle. Ya
Then there will be VBS in there some where of course. I will be doing something for that hopefully. And then come August 20th I will be making the treck back to dorm to await the arival of the High school students on the 25th and the University girls on the 3rd of September. I am very excited about all this that is coming. All i have to do now is get thru my finals and I will be good to go!! Whooo hoo!

PS, while I may be very excited about my plans i am very saddened as well. One of my friends from dorm is not coming back next year and this makes me very sad!!! Meg, I know you got to go but it dont mean i have to like it. You know you can come back any time and visit. My single room is waiting for you!! tee hee (K)